Smell of Death

"In hospitals, they say you know. You know when you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent, the smell of death. Some think there's just some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is heading for you, you feel it coming.

Whatever it is, it's creepy. Because if you know.. what do you do about it?"

Meredith Grey - Grey's Anatomy Season 2

My dog died yesterday morning. He lived up to his name, Double Happiness George (as written in his certificate). He doubled, no, even tripled my happiness. I was shocked since he looked better when I visited him at the vet the day before he died.  I cried myself to sleep yesterday. I got teary eyes when someone asked about what happened to him. I couldn't smile. I felt like crap. I felt like the weather that day, dark and gloomy. I guess I would be lying to myself if I didn't know that death was a possibility. I have been forcing smiles and laughs all the time he was sick. He threw up everything that went in his tiny body for four days. He was infused for two days but even that didn't help. What makes me really sad was the fact I wasn't there when he died. I really want to think I had given him his best shot to heal, you know. I am not convinced until now. There will always be a part of me that ask "what if". Even the doctor didn't know what happened..

All I know is now I'm letting go. You did good, boy. You did good. Sleep tight, now.

Last picture we took together. Day two when he was sick.

Look 29 from 30

I wore no. 6 + 19, hat - CottonOn, bag - vintage, grey oxfords - Marks&Spencer

Look 30 from 30

I wore no. 28, belt - HongKong, loafers - Bellagio

Life goes on. Births and deaths are part of life. Although there is no heaven/hell for dogs, the thought that he feels no pain anymore soothe me a little bit. My heart still aches every time I remember him. The aches will linger on, I'm sure. But I also believe it will hurt less and less as time goes on. Besides, what was the saying? Time heals all wounds. So today I'm going to smile and laugh and letting go.

I'm sorry if this post is so forlorn and solemn. Good news is, I finished my remixing challenge. I miss my entire closet. Saw all my 30 looks here. Have a good night.

Being Grateful

"Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. 
Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. 
Appreciating small victories.
 Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. 
Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. 
And maybe for the things we'll never know. 
At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."
Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy.

Look 28 from 30

Just some of my current obsessions.
Meredith Grey's quotes.
Breakfast menu for lunch.
Pancakes with ice creams.
Shirts under sleeveless dresses.
Necklaces under collars.

Been a pretty good day. AND my dog is getting better. Keep sending your prayers <3

Live Laugh Love

I wore no 1 + 15 +18 , vintage briefcase - bought it at Cascade Living, flower ring & earrings - gifted, ankle strap white wedges - BTC

I do believe this catchphrase will be one of those lines people pass over again and again. As the message is eternal and transcends and applicable in any era. It is unfortunate that people sometimes get too caught up in their failures and downfall. Often all you need to remember is you are alive, then live; remember to laugh, as laughter is the best medicine; and remember to love, simply because love conquers all things. Good night, sweet people. Let's live it up on Monday with laughter and whole lot of love.


I am 4 looks short on my 30 from 30 Challenge and I sort of just lazying around. But I am planning to take outfit pictures this afternoon so I can finish it on time. No rush tho.. Life has been slowing down too. And I couldn't be anymore peaceful. I got 8 hours of sleep for 5 straight days. That's gotta be a record. So.. It's a perfectly turtle-pace for now. Hopefully your weekend was slow and lovely too.

Look 26 from 30

I wore no. 9 + 11 + 24 , polkadot headband - Korea, collar necklace - Premium Shop, pearl bracelet - H&M, white wedges - Heatwave

I guess I'm too in sync with my dog. We both sick. Mine is minor (cough and flu) and his is a little bit major.. I feel really bad for him. He couldn't stop shivering and he just won't eat! The vet came yesterday and gave my dog a shot and he ate a little after that but today he won't eat again. I'm officially worried. Do pray for us.. Your positive vibes will be appreciated.

Sunday Music :
Crash Your Party by Karmin (LOVE the retro-vibe in the music video!)

Sittin' on the top of the world you got the best view
Livin' life with a cheat sheet, nobody test you, huh?
Your mind is a mess, heart is a chess piece
Movin' down the board now I'm takin' down the king of the castle
While I'm on top of this beat I dazzle
How could you ever conceive I'd razzle up — 'nuff of that beef
Now I'm gonna tweak out — Now you better peace out
Cause I gotta full house, yeah baby
Four of a kind, there's no room in my life for an ego your size

Mean Jeans

The title is sort of tells it all. This post will be remember forever. As this post shows everyone why I don't take pictures in jeans. Although I do wear them rather often. Oh the irony.

Look 24 from 30

I wore no. 3 + 21, hat - Fiore, woven bag - TickTockVintage, belt - CottonOn, loafers - vintage from Melbourne

Look 25 from 30

I wore no. 9 + 22 , beanie - Ciwalk, white oxfords - Gaudi, big heart bracelet - ForeverNew, purple belt - Charles&Keith

Out of Sight

Out of sight out of mind. That's what they all said. I guess that's the truth for some cases. And there are just that one special case that you can't seem to take your mind off.

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I wore no. 10 + 17 , floral headband - thrifted, belt - Stroberi (25rb only!), ankle strap wedges - BTC

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I wore no. 25 + 27, leopard belt - Cotton On, bag - Rotelly, fluffy sandals - Rubi, watch - Forever21'

Wore the dress (no. 25) as top. It actually worked quite well!

My hair looks crazy. Too worked up about driving (haven't drive any car for almost 6 months!) my new car Dad bought me to straightened my hair correctly. Arrived home safely. Thanks God :)

I am seven looks short and I haven't even wear my jeans.. Boohoo.. I dread the day I should take any pictures in them!

Collar Necklaces

"It had never occurred to me that our lives, which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I'd known, maybe I'd have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart." - Kathy from Never Let Me Go 2010 movie.

Just wanted to share my morning devotion story. Our lives are short. We, humans, are merely a dust in God's presence. So do live your life to the fullest, kindly, and carefully, and of course, abiding to God's words. Life is too short.

Look 20 from 30

I wore no. 1 + 14 + 19 , collar necklace - Oasap, gold bangle - PVJ, orange ballet flats - H&M

Look 21 from 30

I wore no. 6 + 23, heart sling bag - Fiorelli, bow ring - gifted, bow bangle - Forever21, wedges - Geox, collar necklace - Premium Shop

Clearly, I'm obsessed with collar necklaces. They are just so damn cute and surprisingly practical.

Bask In The Sun

Looking at these pictures taken about two weeks ago made me miss the sun terribly. It has been raining every day every afternoon with dark clouds all day long. Boohoo.. I am so ready for summer. Isn't now supposed to be summer already?

Apologies in advance for the photo frenzy! So difficult to choose. It was so sunny and every single picture demanded to be posted. Haha.

Look 19 from 30

I wore no 2 + 8 + 25 , hat - Chaussure Modest, bunny ring and bow necklace - Forever21, bangle - a birthday present! , bag - from a gift shop at Ciwalk, white oxfords - Gaudi

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