Half of A Shadow






A very good day to you!

First of all, apologies for the lack of updates either here in the blog or in my twitter or in my Lookbook or in my Chictopia. I have been preoccupied with life and despite tiring, I am absolutely grateful I can still have things to do, responsibilities to answer to, and so on..

A few of you asked about the title of the book which I quoted on "The Sandstorm Chases You". It is indeed Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami. I am in love if you can say, with Nakata character in the book. Perhaps because I can relate to him.. He once said that he only have half a shadow than a normal person and that makes him a little bit different. Throughout the end of the book, Nakata was driven by this willpower to do something without knowing the reason. He just has this ultimate full faith that he HAS to do it even though he doesn't know why. In the end, he died, peacefully, with half a shadow and I was left feeling rather empty inside. Like losing a good friend.

In some way I do feel like Nakata sometimes. That I'm lacking something, like I'm only half of what I'm supposed to be (I guess it's time for a boyfriend? LOL). Also, as a Christian, sometimes I do things that I don't even know why I'm doing it, but I know I have to do it because that's what God wants. I guess I have to follow Nakata footsteps, just keep the faith. Oh, and Nakata does this thing where he can sit completely still and not be bored. He just look around and not even thinking.. Which also remind me, I need to be still.. I need to surrender to Him. Often I try so hard to get the things that I want until I forgotten what He wants for me. 

The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent - Exodus 14 : 14

So be still, my darlings, let God take full control of your life and fill that half of a shadow you're missing.

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vintage blouse and dress - Down Memory Lanes, vintage bag and flower headband - thrifted, ring and bracelet - H&M, white heels - Bellagio

PS. I know you are all bored with the background. I am bored with the background as well. Fear not, I am off to Singapore this Saturday. This blog will be a little quiter even more than usual for about a week. Will definitely take outfit pics with a change of scenery. Lord know I could use some! :)


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